So I've been struggling lately with feeling down and anxious all at the same time. I've been so tired with home therapy, house cleaning (have to keep the house clean so therapists can work with Zeke), plus it seems that we have had so many appointments lately that I just feel so busy! I know that feeling down has had a lot to do with being tired but it is discouraging to barely get 30 minutes of work done to then have to sit down and rest. I've been really watching my feet and hands because they have been swelling when I do to much. So Dang if I get alot done and Dang if I don't! LOL
I've been really anxious about the whole baby here soon thing. I have been consistantly measuring 1-2 weeks ahead of schedule but when I measured 3-4 weeks ahead this last time the doctor ordered an ultrasound. So next thursday I'm hoping to get a cute face shot of my cutie. I pray that she is just sitting high rather than being really big. I guess having her ahead of schedule would be okay, but I'd love it if she waited till Zeke's last week of school. I'm anxious because I worked at the hospital I delivered in with both kids, so I knew the policies and all the nurses, and in fact I picked my room with both kids (they were both born in the same room, cool huh!!) and I got to pick my nurse. So my nurse and I had discussed ahead of time what I wanted and they knew my birth plan. Which basically is I want to be told if they are going to "grope" any where, I want to be told everything that's going on: if my blood pressure is sky high let me know and I'll be a good girl and stay sitting or laying down, if the baby is in distress I want to know. I'm much more complient when I know what's going on. Also I am not against pain meds, in fact I love pain meds, I just don't want to not feel when I need to push (like my epidural with Zeke) or drugged up (like with the IV meds with Kizzy), This is going to really boil down to Brigham and me focusing on my breathing. I tend to not breath when I'm in pain, which in essence causes more pain. So Brigham is going to help me not hyperventalate this time. I still will have meds but I'm hoping for not a ton of them. I don't know why it makes me anxious this time to go to EIRMC, I guess it has a lot to do with control. I like to be in control of my little world. Oh, well maybe I'm suppose to learn something! LOL
So about my new outlook, I love Grey's Anatomy and this last episode Merideth's surgery was stolen by her husband and she was getting really upset about it. Another surgical resident told her "Be a Who" and she was confused. "Be like a Who in Whoville. When the Grinch stole Christmas, they came out and sang anyway. They didn't let Christmas being stolen ruin their day." (I paraphrased) But what a good outlook. So now my new thing is "Be Like a Who!"
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
30 weeks!
Thirty weeks!! YEAH!! I'm so excited to be done being pregnant! I'm not however ready to be sleep deprived and to go through labor. Oh, well. So here is an interesting thing about being pregnant, people you don't know seem to think it's okay to come and rub your belly. I mean it's not a terrible thing to have people address your tummy and talk to it but if I wasn't pregnant people wouldn't assume that it would be okay to rub my belly. Oh, well I think it's pretty funny.
Have a wedding cake order for April 17th. Six weeks before I'm due, Yes a little psycho but the extra money will be wonderful! I'll post pictures of it when I'm done.
Have a wedding cake order for April 17th. Six weeks before I'm due, Yes a little psycho but the extra money will be wonderful! I'll post pictures of it when I'm done.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
How in the world??
We have been computer less for about a month! How in the world do people live without one?? I have had to go to my mother-in-laws to get my primary stuff done. Luckily she is a sweet heart and has let me use her printer. But I'm back in the swing of things but now have a ton of things to tell people!! LOL
We are hitting the 29 week mark on Thursday!! So only 11 more weeks to go. However, she is measuring about a week and a half ahead of the game. So either she is sitting high, a big baby or we have our due date wrong. I'm kinda hoping she will wait till her due date because it's Zeke's last day of school and I wouldn't have to worry about walking Zeke across the parking lot to school. This little kiddo is also an extremely active kid. I don't know if I just didn't know what to look for with the other pregnancies or if I was just working to much to notice but this kid seems so much more active! She's a stinker too! She seems to know when her daddy wants her to kick him and she quits moving. But as we get later in the pregnancy there is not very much room for her to hide from his hand. LOL So need less to say Brigham has finally started to feel her move around. I have been extremely tired lately and wondering if I'm getting enough good quality sleep. But then again who sleeps good when they are pregnant? I have also noticed my hands and feet have been swelling which is a little concerning but my blood pressure is down this time around. With Zeke and Kizzy, my blood pressure was scary high, so boo to the swollenness and yeah to the good blood pressure. The kids have been awesome with me being pregnant, we are still trying to teach Zeke that he can't climb all over me as much any more though.
Speaking of Zeke, he has been doing so great in school now that we have gotten rid of the aid that he had. Ms. Hill is an amazing woman. The behaviors that we had been having have pretty much dissapeared. It's so exciting. Since we are all concerned how next year will go since he will have a full day instead of a half day, he will be going for a full week in April to both kindergarten classes. So morning and afternoons. It will be interesting to see how he will do. So the plan hopefully for next year is that he will go to first grade in the morning since that is when they are working on reading and math (things he really excells at) then they want to only start with 1 or 2 days of full day but the afternoon will most likely be filled with a kindergarten class. The hope is that we can get him to tolerate a full day of school, so as he starts tolerateing it, they will add more days so that by the end of the year he will be going everyday full days. And if he tolerates it well sooner they will start intergrating him into the first grade class in the afternoon. So we will see. He most likely will have to repeat 1st grade, not for academics but for where he stands behaviorally and emotionally. We have also started having home therapy twice a week and boy is it hard! One big plus is that my house has to be clean, so I'm forced to work harder and force my family to take better care of the house. It's been interesting.
Kizzy is so ready for school!! She thought that when she turned 5 that she would get to go to school and was dissappointed when she had to wait till August. But she decided to get her ears peirced and has taken such good care of them. She also loves talking to "Her" baby. I'm sure that the baby is going to know Kizzy's voice when she's born. Kizzy also loves to pass out stickers to everyone (princess stickers) and passes one out to Brigham, Zeke, Me, and of course the baby. So, I get a ton of questions if I forget to take the sticker off when I go places.
Brigham just got back from 2 days of training on the Allison Transmitions in Salt Lake City. It's awesome to have him go and learn. It also is an eye opener of how much I depend on Brigham. It's amazing that we can complain that all our husbands to is come home and do nothing but when I'm doing all by myself I realize how much he does. So even though I miss him when he goes I also appreciate the reminder of how much he does. It's also good for him because he comes home missing me and the kids and really shows us he loves us too.
We are hitting the 29 week mark on Thursday!! So only 11 more weeks to go. However, she is measuring about a week and a half ahead of the game. So either she is sitting high, a big baby or we have our due date wrong. I'm kinda hoping she will wait till her due date because it's Zeke's last day of school and I wouldn't have to worry about walking Zeke across the parking lot to school. This little kiddo is also an extremely active kid. I don't know if I just didn't know what to look for with the other pregnancies or if I was just working to much to notice but this kid seems so much more active! She's a stinker too! She seems to know when her daddy wants her to kick him and she quits moving. But as we get later in the pregnancy there is not very much room for her to hide from his hand. LOL So need less to say Brigham has finally started to feel her move around. I have been extremely tired lately and wondering if I'm getting enough good quality sleep. But then again who sleeps good when they are pregnant? I have also noticed my hands and feet have been swelling which is a little concerning but my blood pressure is down this time around. With Zeke and Kizzy, my blood pressure was scary high, so boo to the swollenness and yeah to the good blood pressure. The kids have been awesome with me being pregnant, we are still trying to teach Zeke that he can't climb all over me as much any more though.
Speaking of Zeke, he has been doing so great in school now that we have gotten rid of the aid that he had. Ms. Hill is an amazing woman. The behaviors that we had been having have pretty much dissapeared. It's so exciting. Since we are all concerned how next year will go since he will have a full day instead of a half day, he will be going for a full week in April to both kindergarten classes. So morning and afternoons. It will be interesting to see how he will do. So the plan hopefully for next year is that he will go to first grade in the morning since that is when they are working on reading and math (things he really excells at) then they want to only start with 1 or 2 days of full day but the afternoon will most likely be filled with a kindergarten class. The hope is that we can get him to tolerate a full day of school, so as he starts tolerateing it, they will add more days so that by the end of the year he will be going everyday full days. And if he tolerates it well sooner they will start intergrating him into the first grade class in the afternoon. So we will see. He most likely will have to repeat 1st grade, not for academics but for where he stands behaviorally and emotionally. We have also started having home therapy twice a week and boy is it hard! One big plus is that my house has to be clean, so I'm forced to work harder and force my family to take better care of the house. It's been interesting.
Kizzy is so ready for school!! She thought that when she turned 5 that she would get to go to school and was dissappointed when she had to wait till August. But she decided to get her ears peirced and has taken such good care of them. She also loves talking to "Her" baby. I'm sure that the baby is going to know Kizzy's voice when she's born. Kizzy also loves to pass out stickers to everyone (princess stickers) and passes one out to Brigham, Zeke, Me, and of course the baby. So, I get a ton of questions if I forget to take the sticker off when I go places.
Brigham just got back from 2 days of training on the Allison Transmitions in Salt Lake City. It's awesome to have him go and learn. It also is an eye opener of how much I depend on Brigham. It's amazing that we can complain that all our husbands to is come home and do nothing but when I'm doing all by myself I realize how much he does. So even though I miss him when he goes I also appreciate the reminder of how much he does. It's also good for him because he comes home missing me and the kids and really shows us he loves us too.
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